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Previously, on "Dirty John"...
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Rocket-propelled grenade.
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The guy who was next to
me in the Humvee died.
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You're saying he wasn't there?
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I'm just saying he wasn't in Iraq
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when you keep saying he was.
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Who the hell's "TS"?
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"Can't wait for tomorrow night."
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- Who is it?
- Toby, my nephew.
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- Toby Sellars?
- Excuse me.
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- Be right back.
- Who's that?
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- Is that...
- Yeah, it's my brother-in-law.
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- Ex-brother...
- Your brother-in-law?
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You should be glad your
dad killed your mom
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so she didn't have to
be around to see this.
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- [SIGHS]
- [GASPS]
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Did you open my mail? How dare you!
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It's a felony to open someone's mail.
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In California and Ohio
he's been in prison.
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- So then what should I do?
- If you have a will
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and he's in it, take him out.
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- Call someone, Deb!
- Oh, my God!
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- What's going on?
- I don't know.
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He was fine, and then he just collapsed.
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Could you help me understand
his history with narcotics?
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If you were me, what would you do?
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- Would you leave?
- Stay in hotels
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or places you've never stayed before.
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Dye your hair, probably.
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Make yourself a difficult target.
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[TENSE MUSIC]
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- [SOBBING]
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You just have to give it time.
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- I can't.
- You... you just have
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- to give it a chance to work.
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I know, I know, I do, but
it just feels wrong.
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It feels wrong.
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But they said it would, remember?
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They... they said that it
would feel counterintuitive.
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That's what Mr.... um,
your counselor said.
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- [SNIFFLES]
- That to make a marriage work
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that, you know, it seems like
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we should hang on much tighter
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and stay even closer, but that sometimes
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a, um... a separation
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can bring a new perspective.
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[WEEPING] Said it would only work
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if we both had the same goals,
if we were both honest...
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- Right.
- About wanting it to work
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but Cindi isn't.
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She's pretending she
does but she doesn't.
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Why do you say that?
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It was the only way left to show him
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that we really tried hard enough.
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Hard enough to what?
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To save the marriage.
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So he can accept that it can't be saved.
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Well, that's not what he
thought was happening.
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- He went there in good faith.
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Of course he did.
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I mean, the whole thing was his idea.
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Years of not listening to
me, of trying to control
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everything that I do, I
finally say that I want
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to leave, that I am leaving,
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and then he wants to go to counseling.
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- Cindi...
- So someone can tell me
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to try harder. Tell me to be happy
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my whole life not being allowed
to wear a bikini on the beach.
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Not being allowed to go
grocery shopping alone
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or do anything alone.
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I always encouraged her to be
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whatever she wanted to be.
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Said I never gave her room to grow.
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I asked, "Grow into what?"
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She won't ever tell me.
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[SHAKY BREATHING]
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I've known her my whole life. [WEEPING]
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I can't remember a time
when I didn't love her.
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I'm the love of his life
because I've just been there
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his whole life.
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We were babies. We
didn't know any better.
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You were right. [SCOFFS]
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You told me that we were
too young to get married
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and I didn't listen.
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Debbie listened and I
didn't and you were right,
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like you always are.
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- And now here we are.
- Don't be so dramatic.
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And I say that as someone
who's on your side.
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But you don't want me to be happy.
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I want to stop you
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from making a mistake that
you won't be able to fix.
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And you're almost there.
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You've been together so long.
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You were both so young.
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When Cindi thinks about what
she thinks she's missed
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it's easier for her to just blame you.
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It's easier for her to say
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that you're in her way and
that she wants a new start
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rather than make the life she has
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into the life that she wants.
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When we choose what we want,
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what we feel right now,
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over what we promised...
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what we swore to somebody...
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That can haunt us the rest of our lives.
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Well, I would choose whatever comes next
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to be free right now.
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I would choose being haunted
my whole life, Mom.
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She wants a divorce.
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She's not saying it yet but she will.
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And what am I gonna do? [SOBBING]
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She's... she's confused.
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She's just confused.
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Can you just tell me that
you at least understand
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what I'm saying?
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Trust in the Lord with all your heart
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and lean not on your own understandings.
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In all your ways acknowledge Him
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and He will direct your path.
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- You love that one.
- Mm.
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You love the whole Book of Proverbs,
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but you really love that one.
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Because it's true.
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He directs our paths.
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Bobby, hey!
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Uh, Frank left for work already.
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Did he tell you he was gonna be here?
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No, I... I figured he wouldn't.
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Said he wouldn't need to be.
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Said I could come by any time
and you could help me out.
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- Yeah, sure.
- The loading dock's
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right next to where we park.
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It's always lit, but still.
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Three muggings in the last five weeks.
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I'm a manager now, so I gotta
lock up at nights, too, so...
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Wow, I had no idea it had
gotten so dangerous.
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Poor Cindi must wait up all
night worrying about you.
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I know I would.
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Oh, finally.
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Here.
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Now, don't you go holding up
a liquor store or anything.
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Pretty sure I'm not gonna be doing that.
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- Good looking out, though.
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He steals drugs from hospitals...
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which he's been to prison
for, by the way...
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and for the stalking.
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I saw all that stuff in there.
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- I get it, I do.
- Okay, so how many
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restraining orders do there have to be
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from how many different people
before you do your job?
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Well, right now I am seeing which law
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I can actually enforce
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in this particular situation
that we have right here.
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Okay, "John Meehan."
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Parole officer has Bay Front Avenue
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on Balboa as his current address.
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Nice. You live there too, miss?
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- Yes.
- Okay.
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He's not on the lease,
though, is that right?
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"John Meehan"?
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No.
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Does it... how do you know that?
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Well, it says PO asked
for a copy of the lease
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to confirm, but Meehan told
her he couldn't give her one
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- 'cause it wasn't in his name.
- Given his history
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of conning women, she
didn't maybe think that
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- that was a red flag?
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File says she was planning
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site visit to check his story out.
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Okay, except how about
she did not do that?
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He's not the only parolee
she's gotta keep tabs on.
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And he gave her the
address in mid-December,
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so she probably just hasn't
had time to get there.
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You two were pen pals
when he was in the joint?
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No.
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So it just all happened
pretty fast, then,
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once he got out.
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You guys meeting, getting
together I guess.
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Is that what you guess?
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Do you think you're being subtle?
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- Look, I...
- Because you are not.
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Do you not think that my mother
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is already upset enough over this?
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You think she wants to come here
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so you can make her feel worse?
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Think that's why she pays her taxes?
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So she can come into your office
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and you can shame her?
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- Is that what you think?
- Look, that's not
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- what I think.
- Good.
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I'm sorry.
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But what I do think is there's
not a whole lot I can do.
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[LAUGHS] Right.
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So that means you can do nothing, right?
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What I mean is, since
he's paid his recent debt
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to society, what I have is a bad guy
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with a bad history who,
so far as we know,
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hasn't actually broken a
law in Newport Beach.
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I can't even pick him up
for failure to report
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to his PO.
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Whatever this is he's
up to, he's good at it.
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- [PHONE VIBRATING]
- But he's on our radar now... my radar...
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- and if he makes a move...
- When.
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When he makes a move.
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We'll be on him like a ton of bricks.
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You have my word on that.
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Right now that's all I got.
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[PHONE VIBRATING]
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Oh, what about this place?
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I designed the club at that place.
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John might remember.
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Anyway, you know, I'm
pretending I'm going
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- on a spa vacation.
- This place looks good.
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I don't want to hemorrhage money.
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That place is so expensive, Ronnie.
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So where, then? Huh?
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Don't get frustrated with me in addition
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- to everything else right now.
- We can't go to Grandma's,
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and you can't go to
Trey's 'cause he knows
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where both of them live, and I'm out
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of the penthouse already.
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Although, technically
that is still paid for
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through the end of the month,
but that's like ground zero
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for this whole stupid situation.
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What about one of those
places, you know,
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over by the Spectrum?
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You know those places?
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Like, one of the corporate suites?
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- Yeah.
- With the shower curtains?
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They have self-parking, Mom.
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I know, but I have to go
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to a place that I wouldn't
normally go, you know?
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I don't want to stand out.
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I don't want to do my normal routine.
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I don't want John to find me.
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We should pay for the room in cash.
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Maybe you would know
if he was monitoring
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your credit cards, but maybe
you wouldn't, you know?
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Let's go find an ATM.
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I got it.
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Oh, my God.
259
00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:20,360
- It's not so bad.
- [SCOFFS]
260
00:10:20,400 --> 00:10:24,400
I mean, at least you're
not here forever, right?
261
00:10:24,440 --> 00:10:27,910
- Right.
- It's dark and musty.
262
00:10:32,310 --> 00:10:35,580
You know there's no room
service here, right?
263
00:10:35,620 --> 00:10:37,160
That's all right. I... I'm not...
264
00:10:37,200 --> 00:10:39,560
I'm not really hungry anyway.
265
00:10:40,820 --> 00:10:42,920
Did you call the hospital?
266
00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:46,020
I did, and, you know, I...
I talked to the nurse
267
00:10:46,040 --> 00:10:48,290
who was sitting right in front of John.
268
00:10:48,330 --> 00:10:49,930
He's not going anywhere.
269
00:10:49,960 --> 00:10:52,280
She says his fever is very high
270
00:10:52,300 --> 00:10:54,470
and they're watching his immune system.
271
00:10:54,500 --> 00:10:57,500
Post-surgery or something.
272
00:10:57,540 --> 00:11:00,380
[SIGHS] Let's hope they
forget to sanitize, huh?
273
00:11:01,940 --> 00:11:05,340
- But I should go.
- Oh, okay.
274
00:11:05,380 --> 00:11:07,140
Are you gonna be okay here on your own?
275
00:11:07,180 --> 00:11:08,480
- Yes.
- You sure?
276
00:11:08,510 --> 00:11:10,150
- Mm-hmm.
- Okay.
277
00:11:10,180 --> 00:11:11,660
[TENSE MUSIC]
278
00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:14,290
- You call me if you need me.
- Okay.
279
00:11:14,320 --> 00:11:15,620
Thank you, hun.
280
00:11:15,860 --> 00:11:18,820
[PHONE VIBRATING]
281
00:11:18,860 --> 00:11:21,490
[SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC]
282
00:11:21,530 --> 00:11:25,080
♪ ♪
283
00:11:25,100 --> 00:11:27,660
[PHONE VIBRATING]
284
00:11:34,310 --> 00:11:37,310
[PHONE VIBRATING]
285
00:11:37,340 --> 00:11:44,050
♪ ♪
286
00:11:44,080 --> 00:11:45,520
[VOICEMAIL BEEPS]
287
00:11:45,550 --> 00:11:47,120
I've figured it out now, I guess.
288
00:11:47,150 --> 00:11:49,820
[LIGHTS BUZZING]
289
00:11:49,860 --> 00:11:52,790
I don't understand where you are, Deb.
290
00:11:52,830 --> 00:11:54,690
♪ ♪
291
00:11:54,730 --> 00:11:58,200
[ICE MACHINE RATTLING]
292
00:11:58,230 --> 00:12:00,830
I don't understand what's happening.
293
00:12:00,870 --> 00:12:03,000
♪ ♪
294
00:12:03,040 --> 00:12:05,720
Maybe I do. I just...
295
00:12:05,970 --> 00:12:08,810
don't want to believe you're a coward.
296
00:12:08,840 --> 00:12:10,120
[DOOR OPENS]
297
00:12:10,140 --> 00:12:12,640
You promised me this was forever.
298
00:12:12,680 --> 00:12:15,350
We promised that to each other.
299
00:12:15,380 --> 00:12:17,700
Well, I guess you didn't mean it.
300
00:12:17,740 --> 00:12:20,080
♪ ♪
301
00:12:20,120 --> 00:12:21,680
But I did.
302
00:12:21,780 --> 00:12:25,420
The choices we make show who we are.
303
00:12:25,460 --> 00:12:27,690
I know who you are now, Deb.
304
00:12:27,700 --> 00:12:30,590
[KEYS TAPPING]
305
00:12:30,630 --> 00:12:32,260
♪ ♪
306
00:12:32,300 --> 00:12:34,600
Pray for me, at least.
307
00:12:34,630 --> 00:12:35,720
Okay?
308
00:12:35,780 --> 00:12:38,600
- _
- 'Cause I'm praying for you.
309
00:12:41,140 --> 00:12:42,210
Try it again.
310
00:12:42,220 --> 00:12:43,810
♪ Two... one, two, three ♪
311
00:12:43,820 --> 00:12:45,580
Tuck that...
312
00:12:45,640 --> 00:12:47,640
- Coming back down.
- [PHONE RINGING]
313
00:12:47,700 --> 00:12:49,030
Okay, keep going.
314
00:12:49,060 --> 00:12:50,400
I'll be right back.
315
00:12:50,430 --> 00:12:52,240
[PLAYING SCALES]
316
00:12:52,260 --> 00:12:55,000
[PHONE RINGING]
317
00:12:55,030 --> 00:12:57,660
[PLAYING SCALES]
318
00:12:57,670 --> 00:12:59,190
- Hello?
- Hi, Mom, it's Cindi.
319
00:12:59,200 --> 00:13:00,240
[GASPS] Hi!
320
00:13:00,260 --> 00:13:02,610
- Are you teaching all day?
- Yes... uh, yeah.
321
00:13:02,640 --> 00:13:05,080
- Most of the day, yeah.
- Think you can take a break?
322
00:13:05,110 --> 00:13:07,280
Um, about noon.
323
00:13:07,310 --> 00:13:09,210
Uh, I could maybe move
one of my students.
324
00:13:09,250 --> 00:13:10,600
No, noon is good.
325
00:13:10,620 --> 00:13:12,780
I just want to tell
you what's happening.
326
00:13:12,820 --> 00:13:14,580
Okay, well... well, come hungry.
327
00:13:14,620 --> 00:13:17,120
- I'll make us a special lunch.
- I'll see you at 12:00.
328
00:13:17,140 --> 00:13:18,320
- I love you.
- Okay.
329
00:13:18,340 --> 00:13:19,700
You, too. Bye.
330
00:13:22,690 --> 00:13:27,620
[CLOCK TICKING]
331
00:13:46,620 --> 00:13:48,180
[DOORBELL RINGS]
332
00:13:48,220 --> 00:13:51,020
Oh, Cindi, Cindi, Cindi.
333
00:13:55,460 --> 00:13:57,960
- Oh, Megan.
- Sorry I'm early.
334
00:13:58,000 --> 00:14:00,030
My mom had to drop me off... [MUMBLING]
335
00:14:00,070 --> 00:14:01,620
Oh, that's fine, honey.
336
00:14:01,640 --> 00:14:03,580
- That's fine, I was just...
- Is Mom here?
337
00:14:03,620 --> 00:14:05,190
No, Toby, honey, I'm sorry.
338
00:14:05,220 --> 00:14:06,800
No, I... I must have heard her wrong.
339
00:14:06,810 --> 00:14:07,970
Um, I'll send her right in to you
340
00:14:07,990 --> 00:14:09,690
when she gets here, okay?
341
00:14:11,360 --> 00:14:13,730
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
342
00:14:13,760 --> 00:14:20,670
♪ ♪
343
00:14:20,700 --> 00:14:22,700
[GASPS]
344
00:14:24,310 --> 00:14:27,710
- [WEEPING]
- Did I make it worse for you?
345
00:14:29,210 --> 00:14:31,380
Because I liked him so much?
346
00:14:31,410 --> 00:14:34,170
Did I make it harder for you
to see who he really was?
347
00:14:37,730 --> 00:14:39,590
No.
348
00:14:41,160 --> 00:14:43,690
Mom, I... I don't think I...
349
00:14:43,830 --> 00:14:46,530
ever saw who he really was.
350
00:14:46,560 --> 00:14:48,860
What the kids told me...
351
00:14:48,900 --> 00:14:51,500
what they found out is...
is just unbelievable.
352
00:14:51,520 --> 00:14:54,690
- Mm-hmm.
- I... I can't wrap my mind around it.
353
00:14:56,940 --> 00:14:58,610
You know...
354
00:14:58,640 --> 00:15:02,440
there was something
that I felt around him.
355
00:15:03,750 --> 00:15:06,080
I don't know, something...
356
00:15:06,110 --> 00:15:08,110
missing in him, you know?
357
00:15:08,150 --> 00:15:09,770
Yeah.
358
00:15:09,890 --> 00:15:11,770
Honesty.
359
00:15:12,020 --> 00:15:15,290
[BOTH LAUGHING]
360
00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:17,730
[SNIFFLES] That was it.
361
00:15:17,790 --> 00:15:20,890
[BOTH LAUGHING, SOBBING]
362
00:15:22,730 --> 00:15:24,760
Oh, we're laughing about it.
363
00:15:24,800 --> 00:15:27,070
[SNIFFLES] Oh, my goodness.
364
00:15:27,100 --> 00:15:28,970
[BOTH LAUGHING]
365
00:15:29,000 --> 00:15:31,790
But you know, that thing that I felt...
366
00:15:32,510 --> 00:15:35,780
I... it never was about you, Debbie.
367
00:15:38,610 --> 00:15:41,710
Always thought he loved you.
368
00:15:44,390 --> 00:15:45,790
I did too.
369
00:15:47,090 --> 00:15:49,810
I still... I still kinda do.
370
00:15:50,060 --> 00:15:51,590
Is that crazy?
371
00:15:51,630 --> 00:15:53,770
No, 'cause you're wonderful.
372
00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:56,530
- How could he not love you?
- [LAUGHS]
373
00:15:56,570 --> 00:15:59,810
[BOTH SNIFFLING AND LAUGHING]
374
00:15:59,870 --> 00:16:01,470
Oh, I don't know.
375
00:16:01,500 --> 00:16:04,390
Is it worse or better to know that...
376
00:16:04,750 --> 00:16:07,790
he did this to women before you?
377
00:16:09,640 --> 00:16:11,730
You know, he didn't...
378
00:16:12,130 --> 00:16:15,540
he didn't do anything to
me, really, except lie.
379
00:16:15,550 --> 00:16:17,550
But to lie...
380
00:16:17,590 --> 00:16:20,020
about being in prison?
381
00:16:20,060 --> 00:16:23,160
- I know.
- Stalking women and... and...
382
00:16:23,190 --> 00:16:24,860
[SNIFFLES]
383
00:16:24,890 --> 00:16:27,160
Oh, my goodness, he's not even a doctor.
384
00:16:27,200 --> 00:16:29,560
I mean, what... what kind
of a person does that?
385
00:16:29,600 --> 00:16:32,330
What... what must be, you know,
386
00:16:32,370 --> 00:16:34,630
inside him to do something like that?
387
00:16:34,670 --> 00:16:37,170
- I don't know.
- Well...
388
00:16:37,210 --> 00:16:38,570
how could you know?
389
00:16:38,620 --> 00:16:39,790
How could you?
390
00:16:41,440 --> 00:16:44,540
But I do wonder, you know, 'cause...
391
00:16:44,580 --> 00:16:47,550
nobody's without sin.
392
00:16:47,580 --> 00:16:49,370
And...
393
00:16:49,490 --> 00:16:51,220
everybody can be saved.
394
00:16:51,250 --> 00:16:53,150
You say it all the time.
395
00:16:53,190 --> 00:16:54,490
You know, nobody's perfect.
396
00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:56,890
Everybody has something.
397
00:16:57,330 --> 00:16:59,730
But, Debbie, you... you
didn't do anything
398
00:16:59,760 --> 00:17:01,900
to deserve this.
399
00:17:01,930 --> 00:17:04,600
What did you do to... to deserve for...
400
00:17:04,630 --> 00:17:07,100
for him to hurt you like that?
401
00:17:07,140 --> 00:17:09,870
To betray you.
402
00:17:10,010 --> 00:17:12,410
- I don't know.
- You did nothing.
403
00:17:12,440 --> 00:17:13,850
You did nothing.
404
00:17:13,870 --> 00:17:15,870
- I know.
- [DOORBELL RINGS]
405
00:17:15,930 --> 00:17:18,590
[TENSE MUSIC]
406
00:17:18,750 --> 00:17:21,110
Are you Mrs. Hart?
407
00:17:21,150 --> 00:17:23,850
- Arlane Hart?
- Yes.
408
00:17:23,890 --> 00:17:25,390
Could we come in?
409
00:17:25,420 --> 00:17:27,550
O... of course.
410
00:17:27,590 --> 00:17:30,790
♪ ♪
411
00:17:30,830 --> 00:17:33,010
You did nothing wrong.
412
00:17:33,730 --> 00:17:35,760
Thank God you found out now.
413
00:17:35,800 --> 00:17:38,230
Thank God that you're away from him.
414
00:17:38,270 --> 00:17:40,970
[SOBBING] 'Cause I couldn't lose
415
00:17:41,000 --> 00:17:42,020
another daughter.
416
00:17:42,050 --> 00:17:45,100
I can't, I can't. [SOBBING]
417
00:17:45,140 --> 00:17:47,770
♪ ♪
418
00:17:47,810 --> 00:17:49,910
Are you home alone, Mrs. Hart?
419
00:17:50,430 --> 00:17:51,950
N... no, no.
420
00:17:51,970 --> 00:17:54,020
My grandson, he's... he's watching TV.
421
00:17:54,040 --> 00:17:55,870
He's... he's 11.
422
00:17:58,590 --> 00:17:59,990
What... what is it?
423
00:18:00,020 --> 00:18:02,290
Ma'am...
424
00:18:02,320 --> 00:18:03,890
there's been a shooting.
425
00:18:05,930 --> 00:18:07,630
What, is it... is it Bobby?
426
00:18:07,660 --> 00:18:10,460
Is it Bobby who's been...
who's been shot?
427
00:18:10,500 --> 00:18:13,870
Ma'am, your daughter, Cindi
Sellars, has been shot.
428
00:18:14,940 --> 00:18:16,400
Oh...
429
00:18:16,440 --> 00:18:19,190
uh, how... how bad is she?
430
00:18:19,290 --> 00:18:20,970
I'm sorry. She...
431
00:18:21,030 --> 00:18:23,070
She didn't make it.
432
00:18:24,310 --> 00:18:27,110
Your son-in-law shot your daughter...
433
00:18:27,150 --> 00:18:28,730
- [WHIMPERS]
- And then he shot himself.
434
00:18:28,740 --> 00:18:29,890
O-oh...
435
00:18:31,990 --> 00:18:34,120
Is... is he dead?
436
00:18:34,160 --> 00:18:36,590
No, he shot himself in the chest area.
437
00:18:36,630 --> 00:18:39,790
He's at the hospital in custody.
438
00:18:39,830 --> 00:18:41,590
[WHIMPERS]
439
00:18:41,630 --> 00:18:44,460
I... I... [STAMMERING]
440
00:18:44,500 --> 00:18:47,330
I... I have... [GASPS]
441
00:18:47,370 --> 00:18:49,940
[STAMMERING]
442
00:18:49,970 --> 00:18:51,470
♪ ♪
443
00:18:51,510 --> 00:18:53,470
[SHAKY BREATHING]
444
00:18:53,510 --> 00:18:55,640
[STAMMERING]
445
00:18:55,680 --> 00:18:59,180
[WHISPERING INDISTINCTLY]
446
00:18:59,210 --> 00:19:01,990
Oh, please, help me.
447
00:19:03,970 --> 00:19:09,950
[SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]
448
00:19:10,260 --> 00:19:13,950
Oh, please. Oh, please.
449
00:19:19,370 --> 00:19:21,770
I... I can do this.
450
00:19:21,800 --> 00:19:24,010
I'm not alone.
451
00:19:24,910 --> 00:19:26,810
I can do this.
452
00:19:31,550 --> 00:19:33,150
Could it be Mr. Rogers?
453
00:19:33,170 --> 00:19:35,380
[CANNED LAUGHTER]
454
00:19:35,420 --> 00:19:37,720
- You're in the neighborhood.
- [LAUGHS]
455
00:19:37,750 --> 00:19:39,650
- [CANNED LAUGHTER]
- Have a seat.
456
00:19:40,960 --> 00:19:43,020
[LAUGHING]
457
00:19:43,060 --> 00:19:44,530
Toby?
458
00:19:44,560 --> 00:19:45,710
Hi, sweetie.
459
00:19:45,730 --> 00:19:49,730
- You are the first lad...
- Something's happened.
460
00:19:49,750 --> 00:19:51,750
[TELEVISION CHATTERING]
461
00:19:51,840 --> 00:19:54,870
Something terrible has happened.
462
00:19:54,910 --> 00:19:57,710
- Why are policemen here?
- Um...
463
00:19:58,040 --> 00:20:00,880
well, they... they came to tell me...
464
00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:04,070
that your father has shot
465
00:20:04,080 --> 00:20:05,740
and killed your mother.
466
00:20:06,230 --> 00:20:09,830
That she is dead.
467
00:20:10,070 --> 00:20:11,800
Y... your Daddy's okay.
468
00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:14,270
He... he shot himself,
too, but he's okay.
469
00:20:14,310 --> 00:20:15,780
He's not dead.
470
00:20:15,940 --> 00:20:18,560
He's in the hospital right now.
471
00:20:18,750 --> 00:20:21,710
[TENSE MUSIC]
472
00:20:21,750 --> 00:20:23,550
♪ ♪
473
00:20:23,580 --> 00:20:25,760
[SHAKY BREATHING]
474
00:20:25,840 --> 00:20:29,790
It's okay. We can do this.
475
00:20:29,820 --> 00:20:31,820
♪ ♪
476
00:20:31,860 --> 00:20:33,340
But we have to be strong.
477
00:20:33,360 --> 00:20:35,160
So strong.
478
00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:37,330
It's gonna be so, so hard...
479
00:20:37,360 --> 00:20:39,060
but Jesus will help us.
480
00:20:39,100 --> 00:20:41,970
And we have each other, and we have Him,
481
00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:44,570
and we will get through this together.
482
00:20:44,600 --> 00:20:45,840
All of us.
483
00:20:45,940 --> 00:20:47,810
♪ ♪
484
00:20:47,840 --> 00:20:50,410
And, um... okay.
485
00:20:50,440 --> 00:20:52,810
I... I have to...
486
00:20:52,850 --> 00:20:55,150
I have to go...
487
00:20:55,180 --> 00:20:58,770
make some phone... some phone calls,
488
00:20:58,800 --> 00:21:01,320
and so you watch a little more TV, okay?
489
00:21:01,350 --> 00:21:04,620
And I will come back
in a bit and get you.
490
00:21:04,660 --> 00:21:06,590
Okay, love bug?
491
00:21:06,630 --> 00:21:09,660
[TELEVISION CHATTERING]
492
00:21:09,700 --> 00:21:11,860
I can be strong with you, Grandma.
493
00:21:13,470 --> 00:21:16,170
Mm. I know you can, my sweet boy.
494
00:21:16,200 --> 00:21:23,240
♪ ♪
495
00:21:26,810 --> 00:21:28,810
The good news is,
you're free of him now.
496
00:21:28,850 --> 00:21:31,050
You know, you're here, you're safe.
497
00:21:31,080 --> 00:21:33,880
That's all I care about.
498
00:21:34,450 --> 00:21:35,880
Thank you.
499
00:21:38,890 --> 00:21:41,130
Some of the stuff me
and Ronnie found out
500
00:21:41,160 --> 00:21:43,860
about this guy? [SIGHS]
501
00:21:43,900 --> 00:21:46,130
He's a con man, you know?
502
00:21:46,170 --> 00:21:48,990
He wanted money for drugs
and all that stuff
503
00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:50,970
but he was more than that.
504
00:21:51,000 --> 00:21:52,740
What he really wants is for people
505
00:21:52,770 --> 00:21:55,340
to remember him.
506
00:21:55,380 --> 00:21:56,870
[ECHOING] He wanted these women
507
00:21:56,910 --> 00:21:59,880
to live in fear of him, which is crazy.
508
00:22:00,460 --> 00:22:03,050
That'd be like the one thing
that I would ask him about
509
00:22:03,080 --> 00:22:05,250
if I ever saw him again, you know?
510
00:22:05,290 --> 00:22:07,320
"Why?"
511
00:22:09,060 --> 00:22:11,360
Not that'd ever explain himself to me.
512
00:22:11,390 --> 00:22:12,720
I don't know.
513
00:22:12,760 --> 00:22:14,390
He might. [LAUGHS]
514
00:22:14,430 --> 00:22:15,920
Mm.
515
00:22:15,980 --> 00:22:19,360
He said this one woman
was like his project.
516
00:22:19,400 --> 00:22:21,870
Did you feel that way?
517
00:22:23,920 --> 00:22:25,870
No.
518
00:22:28,140 --> 00:22:30,910
No, I just...
519
00:22:30,940 --> 00:22:32,910
felt like he loved me.
520
00:22:32,950 --> 00:22:34,980
[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]
521
00:22:35,010 --> 00:22:37,780
I mean, he's one heck of a liar, right?
522
00:22:37,960 --> 00:22:40,550
I'm sure part of it's true, you know.
523
00:22:40,590 --> 00:22:42,620
He must have felt that way a little bit
524
00:22:42,660 --> 00:22:45,690
to convince people like that.
525
00:22:45,730 --> 00:22:47,940
Like you.
526
00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:52,700
♪ ♪
527
00:22:52,730 --> 00:22:55,230
I could never really understand...
528
00:22:55,270 --> 00:22:57,770
what happened to Mom, you know.
529
00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:00,370
Why, uh...
530
00:23:00,410 --> 00:23:03,410
why Dad did that thing to her.
531
00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:05,740
Because he loved her too much?
532
00:23:05,780 --> 00:23:08,080
♪ ♪
533
00:23:08,110 --> 00:23:10,780
Sometimes I still don't
understand, you know?
534
00:23:10,820 --> 00:23:13,750
- Mm.
- But...
535
00:23:13,790 --> 00:23:16,290
this thing with John...
536
00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:19,220
why he does these things...
537
00:23:19,260 --> 00:23:21,390
it almost makes that seem simple.
538
00:23:27,200 --> 00:23:29,220
[DOOR BUZZING]
539
00:23:30,540 --> 00:23:33,540
[QUIET OVERLAPPING CHATTER]
540
00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,620
Over here. You got ten minutes.
541
00:24:04,080 --> 00:24:06,040
I'm so sorry.
542
00:24:06,670 --> 00:24:09,080
I am so, so sorry.
543
00:24:11,680 --> 00:24:13,810
When... when you would come and...
544
00:24:13,850 --> 00:24:16,020
and talk to me about...
545
00:24:16,950 --> 00:24:20,060
Did you already know
you were gonna do it?
546
00:24:20,350 --> 00:24:23,320
[SHAKY BREATHING] Yes.
547
00:24:24,860 --> 00:24:27,930
To myself, um...
548
00:24:28,100 --> 00:24:30,040
I wanted to do it to myself.
549
00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:32,420
Not to her.
550
00:24:32,460 --> 00:24:36,130
I mean, not her. Not ever.
551
00:24:36,170 --> 00:24:37,370
How are you?
552
00:24:37,400 --> 00:24:40,700
You're wearing...
553
00:24:40,740 --> 00:24:42,840
[SIGHS]
554
00:24:42,880 --> 00:24:44,520
It doesn't matter.
555
00:24:46,910 --> 00:24:50,080
Do you still want to die?
556
00:24:50,120 --> 00:24:52,080
Yes, but...
557
00:24:52,220 --> 00:24:54,100
I don't deserve to.
558
00:24:55,460 --> 00:24:57,710
I should live every day
559
00:24:57,720 --> 00:25:00,490
of a long life in here
thinking about her.
560
00:25:04,230 --> 00:25:06,100
How's Toby?
561
00:25:07,300 --> 00:25:09,770
Scared.
562
00:25:10,100 --> 00:25:13,000
For you. For...
563
00:25:13,040 --> 00:25:16,040
where you are and what
might be happening to you.
564
00:25:16,410 --> 00:25:18,010
You tell him not to be.
565
00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:20,710
You just tell him, "Don't be scared."
566
00:25:20,750 --> 00:25:21,980
[SNIFFLES]
567
00:25:22,000 --> 00:25:24,080
You killed my daughter, Bobby.
568
00:25:25,250 --> 00:25:27,750
- I hate what you've done.
- [SHAKY EXHALE]
569
00:25:27,790 --> 00:25:29,790
[TENSE MUSIC]
570
00:25:29,820 --> 00:25:32,860
More than I've ever hated
anything in this whole world.
571
00:25:32,890 --> 00:25:36,190
♪ ♪
572
00:25:36,230 --> 00:25:37,930
But you loved her.
573
00:25:37,960 --> 00:25:40,700
- I know that.
- [SHAKY EXHALE]
574
00:25:40,730 --> 00:25:42,770
God has given us all of this love
575
00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:44,970
we have for each other.
576
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:46,470
♪ ♪
577
00:25:46,510 --> 00:25:49,410
Long ago, he showed us who you are.
578
00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:51,410
So we love you.
579
00:25:51,440 --> 00:25:53,980
♪ ♪
580
00:25:54,010 --> 00:25:55,980
Still.
581
00:25:56,020 --> 00:25:57,620
♪ ♪
582
00:25:57,650 --> 00:25:59,280
We all do.
583
00:25:59,320 --> 00:26:01,220
Still.
584
00:26:01,250 --> 00:26:02,890
♪ ♪
585
00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:05,320
[WEEPING SOFTLY]
586
00:26:05,360 --> 00:26:08,140
How... how can you say that?
587
00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:28,110
Can any hide himself in secret places
588
00:26:28,150 --> 00:26:30,380
that I shall not see him?
589
00:26:30,420 --> 00:26:34,550
[SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC]
590
00:26:34,590 --> 00:26:36,650
[SNIFFLES]
591
00:26:36,690 --> 00:26:38,590
♪ ♪
592
00:26:38,620 --> 00:26:42,120
In the Lord we have
redemption through His blood.
593
00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:44,360
♪ ♪
594
00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:46,860
The forgiveness of our trespasses...
595
00:26:46,900 --> 00:26:49,000
♪ ♪
596
00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:52,100
According to the riches of His grace.
597
00:26:54,580 --> 00:26:57,780
[BEEPING]
598
00:26:57,810 --> 00:27:04,780
♪ ♪
599
00:27:16,830 --> 00:27:22,330
[BEEPING]
600
00:27:22,510 --> 00:27:26,500
[BEEPING]
601
00:27:26,510 --> 00:27:28,450
Deb, I'm sorry.
602
00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:31,180
I am so...
603
00:27:31,210 --> 00:27:32,550
- so sorry.
- No.
604
00:27:32,580 --> 00:27:34,470
I don't want to hear anything...
605
00:27:36,720 --> 00:27:38,530
from you except...
606
00:27:41,490 --> 00:27:44,530
I want to know.
607
00:27:45,330 --> 00:27:47,730
What do you want to know?
608
00:27:47,760 --> 00:27:50,470
What do you want to know?
609
00:28:02,180 --> 00:28:04,490
Why'd you do all that?
610
00:28:05,680 --> 00:28:08,210
You heard what I told...
611
00:28:08,550 --> 00:28:10,720
the Sergeant.
612
00:28:10,750 --> 00:28:13,250
[SIGHS] About the drugs.
613
00:28:13,290 --> 00:28:16,390
The pain management program.
614
00:28:18,960 --> 00:28:21,160
There's no...
615
00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:23,460
I'm the program.
616
00:28:25,070 --> 00:28:26,570
I'm an addict.
617
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:32,000
I'm in pain all the time.
618
00:28:32,010 --> 00:28:33,346
- Oh, yeah, from shrapnel.
- No one ever helped me.
619
00:28:33,370 --> 00:28:35,110
- You said from shrapnel...
- I know.
620
00:28:35,140 --> 00:28:37,180
That hit the Jeep and took out guys
621
00:28:37,190 --> 00:28:39,850
- you were working with in Iraq.
- I know.
622
00:28:39,880 --> 00:28:41,850
- I know.
- You said... you said
623
00:28:41,930 --> 00:28:44,360
you had a nursing degree and a...
624
00:28:44,400 --> 00:28:47,140
a structure PhD that made you an MD.
625
00:28:47,170 --> 00:28:49,000
You're not a doctor, John.
626
00:28:49,100 --> 00:28:51,440
I don't know. It was easier, lazier.
627
00:28:51,460 --> 00:28:52,580
My ego, whatever.
628
00:28:52,620 --> 00:28:54,240
To say "doctor," I just...
629
00:28:54,280 --> 00:28:57,020
you're so successful, and I wanted...
630
00:28:57,080 --> 00:28:58,396
- I just wanted...
- So it's my fault?
631
00:28:58,420 --> 00:28:59,880
- ... to be great for you.
- So now this is my fault
632
00:28:59,890 --> 00:29:02,580
- that you... that you lied to me?
- I wanted to be great for you.
633
00:29:02,640 --> 00:29:04,800
You're not a nurse, you're not a doctor.
634
00:29:04,820 --> 00:29:06,200
- You don't have any...
- No, that's not true.
635
00:29:06,220 --> 00:29:08,060
- Any license.
- That's not true.
636
00:29:08,090 --> 00:29:11,450
I had an appeal with the
California medical board
637
00:29:11,460 --> 00:29:13,560
last October, and they granted me
638
00:29:13,580 --> 00:29:15,980
a conditional license... just...
only in this state...
639
00:29:16,020 --> 00:29:18,016
so I could keep working until
things got cleared up.
640
00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:19,990
So whoever told you that, they...
641
00:29:20,000 --> 00:29:21,900
- they do not have the latest result...
- You know what...
642
00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:23,510
- ... from the medical appeals board.
- I don't even care about that.
643
00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:24,530
You know, I wanna know about
644
00:29:24,540 --> 00:29:27,050
all the other things
way back before that.
645
00:29:27,080 --> 00:29:28,600
What other things?
646
00:29:28,680 --> 00:29:30,650
"What other things?"
647
00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:32,640
You tell me, John.
648
00:29:32,660 --> 00:29:34,640
Those papers in the drawer?
649
00:29:37,860 --> 00:29:39,520
You went in the office.
650
00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:41,390
You saw what was in the office.
651
00:29:41,430 --> 00:29:43,990
- Oh, God.
- Yeah.
652
00:29:44,030 --> 00:29:46,660
I saw that stuff. What was that stuff?
653
00:29:50,700 --> 00:29:52,620
My ex, Tonia.
654
00:29:52,940 --> 00:29:55,140
She was having an affair.
655
00:29:55,170 --> 00:29:57,680
She got the divorce to be with him.
656
00:29:57,740 --> 00:30:00,360
He got bored, so she pretended
657
00:30:00,380 --> 00:30:01,540
to be scared of me.
658
00:30:01,580 --> 00:30:04,050
She filed a restraining
order just to show him.
659
00:30:04,080 --> 00:30:06,250
- Just to keep him interested.
- There's so many
660
00:30:06,280 --> 00:30:09,520
- restraining orders.
- They are not me!
661
00:30:09,550 --> 00:30:11,770
They're people with,
like, a similar name...
662
00:30:11,780 --> 00:30:13,750
Well, then how come cops and lawyers
663
00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:15,690
and people that, you know,
664
00:30:15,730 --> 00:30:20,200
get paid to find these
things out, they...
665
00:30:20,230 --> 00:30:22,200
- they say they are you.
- I have asked myself
666
00:30:22,230 --> 00:30:23,620
that question so many times.
667
00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:24,700
I don't know the answer.
668
00:30:24,710 --> 00:30:27,040
I mean, maybe the people that, you know,
669
00:30:27,070 --> 00:30:29,150
put the information in do it wrong.
670
00:30:29,180 --> 00:30:31,340
I don't know, but you
do a database search
671
00:30:31,380 --> 00:30:32,460
and they all come up.
672
00:30:32,470 --> 00:30:34,680
I tried to get a lawyer
to, like, separate me
673
00:30:34,700 --> 00:30:35,950
from them, expunge them.
674
00:30:35,980 --> 00:30:37,740
You can do that if you
can afford a lawyer,
675
00:30:37,750 --> 00:30:39,260
but I couldn't.
676
00:30:46,780 --> 00:30:48,860
I found so many other things, John.
677
00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:52,500
What about the cops in Laguna?
678
00:30:52,540 --> 00:30:54,560
They said you... you tried to kill them.
679
00:30:54,580 --> 00:30:55,590
Come on.
680
00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:57,130
No charges were ever filed.
681
00:30:57,170 --> 00:30:59,220
Just because someone files
a report doesn't mean
682
00:30:59,240 --> 00:31:00,700
that's what happened.
683
00:31:00,740 --> 00:31:02,720
It's nothing.
684
00:31:04,670 --> 00:31:06,850
Once you're in the system,
the cops, they just keep
685
00:31:06,870 --> 00:31:08,690
pulling your chain. [SIGHS]
686
00:31:08,730 --> 00:31:09,780
You're the bad guy.
687
00:31:09,790 --> 00:31:12,670
It's so easy for them, and, you know...
688
00:31:13,300 --> 00:31:15,200
[SIGHS] No one stops them
689
00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,840
or checks on them.
690
00:31:19,850 --> 00:31:21,770
Did you build a gun?
691
00:31:22,090 --> 00:31:24,690
The police say they found knives,
692
00:31:24,730 --> 00:31:26,670
they found cyanide.
693
00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:28,690
Why would you have cyanide?
694
00:31:31,290 --> 00:31:34,630
I wasn't gonna tell you
this stuff because...
695
00:31:36,460 --> 00:31:38,970
So much of what I thought
696
00:31:39,030 --> 00:31:41,760
I had done to myself...
697
00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:44,310
with the drugs... the numbness,
698
00:31:44,350 --> 00:31:46,270
the tingling, the...
699
00:31:46,300 --> 00:31:50,600
the balance, everything...
700
00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:52,730
It turns out it was MS.
701
00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:58,750
Which is impossible to treat,
702
00:31:58,810 --> 00:32:02,750
so I told myself...
703
00:32:05,490 --> 00:32:08,090
That if it ever got too much
704
00:32:08,120 --> 00:32:10,220
that the cyanide would help me.
705
00:32:10,260 --> 00:32:14,090
And it did help me just
knowing that I had it.
706
00:32:17,430 --> 00:32:20,730
But I'd have done that I
would never have met you.
707
00:32:23,270 --> 00:32:25,840
After Tonia got me arrested...
708
00:32:25,870 --> 00:32:28,770
when I was awaiting trial,
709
00:32:28,940 --> 00:32:31,580
I went to a motel...
710
00:32:31,610 --> 00:32:33,100
[SLOW SIGH]
711
00:32:33,110 --> 00:32:34,790
With my med bag...
712
00:32:36,180 --> 00:32:39,090
And a bottle of vodka...
713
00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:41,990
[SOMBER MUSIC]
714
00:32:44,290 --> 00:32:47,130
But I didn't have the
right sized syringe,
715
00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:49,500
so I didn't die.
716
00:32:49,530 --> 00:32:52,030
I passed out and I fell off the bed
717
00:32:52,150 --> 00:32:53,730
and I woke up...
718
00:32:53,770 --> 00:32:56,000
♪ ♪
719
00:32:56,040 --> 00:32:57,700
[STAMMERS]
720
00:32:57,740 --> 00:33:00,840
Covered in blood from the bottle
721
00:33:00,930 --> 00:33:02,320
waiting for someone to find me.
722
00:33:02,360 --> 00:33:04,360
I told you it was shrapnel...
723
00:33:04,400 --> 00:33:06,860
but I'm the shrapnel.
724
00:33:06,900 --> 00:33:09,030
- [SNIFFLES]
- The drugs...
725
00:33:09,070 --> 00:33:10,670
♪ ♪
726
00:33:10,700 --> 00:33:12,070
They explode me.
727
00:33:12,100 --> 00:33:14,380
They make me lie,
728
00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:16,770
they make me steal...
729
00:33:16,880 --> 00:33:18,640
and they make me hurt the people
730
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:20,840
that I love the most.
731
00:33:22,310 --> 00:33:24,880
- [SNIFFLES]
- Especially you.
732
00:33:25,050 --> 00:33:27,920
Can I just say one thing before you go?
733
00:33:27,950 --> 00:33:29,950
♪ ♪
734
00:33:29,990 --> 00:33:33,220
All those times that I said
that you deserve the best?
735
00:33:33,260 --> 00:33:34,860
I meant it.
736
00:33:36,900 --> 00:33:38,880
You're incredible.
737
00:33:39,160 --> 00:33:41,400
I lied. I lied about me,
738
00:33:41,420 --> 00:33:44,430
about my past, about my job...
739
00:33:44,470 --> 00:33:48,870
♪ ♪
740
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:50,370
But not about you.
741
00:33:50,620 --> 00:33:54,880
I never lied about how
much I love you, Deb.
742
00:33:55,860 --> 00:33:58,030
[SNIFFLES]
743
00:33:58,070 --> 00:34:00,350
♪ ♪
744
00:34:11,460 --> 00:34:12,920
[CLEARS THROAT]
745
00:34:14,000 --> 00:34:16,030
Hey, uh, we don't have
746
00:34:16,070 --> 00:34:18,100
a receptionist right at the moment.
747
00:34:18,140 --> 00:34:21,140
She, um... who is your appointment with?
748
00:34:21,170 --> 00:34:22,940
I'm here to see Gregory Reedus.
749
00:34:22,980 --> 00:34:25,360
Oh, that's me. Hi.
750
00:34:25,440 --> 00:34:26,660
- Hi.
- Greg.
751
00:34:26,700 --> 00:34:29,000
I'm Arlane Hart.
752
00:34:29,580 --> 00:34:32,150
I'm Cindi Sellars' mother.
753
00:34:32,190 --> 00:34:34,950
Yeah, I know who you, um...
754
00:34:34,990 --> 00:34:37,160
I can't, uh, talk to you.
755
00:34:37,190 --> 00:34:39,120
- Mr. Reedus...
- I'm really sorry, but I...
756
00:34:39,160 --> 00:34:40,560
- I can't.
- Mr. Reedus, you have
757
00:34:40,590 --> 00:34:41,876
- to let me...
- Maybe you're confused,
758
00:34:41,900 --> 00:34:43,660
which is normal and it's fine,
759
00:34:43,700 --> 00:34:47,330
but, uh, Lisa Usher at the
DA's office, she, uh...
760
00:34:47,370 --> 00:34:50,670
she would be the one who
you should, uh, talk to.
761
00:34:50,700 --> 00:34:52,920
I... I know whose lawyer you are.
762
00:34:53,210 --> 00:34:55,810
Okay, so...
763
00:34:55,840 --> 00:34:58,280
then why are you here?
764
00:35:00,180 --> 00:35:01,480
[PHONE VIBRATING]
765
00:35:01,510 --> 00:35:03,750
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
766
00:35:03,780 --> 00:35:06,680
- Mom, it's me.
- Uh, hi, hun.
767
00:35:06,720 --> 00:35:08,990
- Hi!
- Hi.
768
00:35:09,020 --> 00:35:11,920
- I got you a chai latte.
- Thank you.
769
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:14,430
My God, this room is
even uglier in daylight.
770
00:35:14,460 --> 00:35:15,990
[LAUGHING]
771
00:35:16,030 --> 00:35:18,660
- What were you doing?
- Oh, you know,
772
00:35:18,700 --> 00:35:22,370
I'm trying to get some work done.
773
00:35:22,400 --> 00:35:24,500
- Nice.
- What's that?
774
00:35:24,540 --> 00:35:26,100
Oh, it's a GPS tracker.
775
00:35:26,140 --> 00:35:28,270
I put it on your car at Christmas.
776
00:35:28,310 --> 00:35:31,010
- You put it on my car?
- Yeah.
777
00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:34,050
- To follow John, remember?
- Oh.
778
00:35:34,080 --> 00:35:36,380
- No, I did not remember.
- Yeah, I said that one of us
779
00:35:36,420 --> 00:35:38,030
should put one on there,
and you said if it would
780
00:35:38,050 --> 00:35:39,600
- make me happy I should do it...
- [PHONE VIBRATING]
781
00:35:39,620 --> 00:35:41,600
- So I did.
- [LAUGHS]
782
00:35:41,610 --> 00:35:45,060
Well, I... I don't think
I was serious, Ronnie.
783
00:35:45,330 --> 00:35:47,040
Well, okay.
784
00:35:47,060 --> 00:35:49,930
I mean, it didn't show
anything that weird, so...
785
00:35:50,720 --> 00:35:53,010
Anyway, I forgot to take it off
your car so I did that
786
00:35:53,040 --> 00:35:54,300
this morning.
787
00:35:54,330 --> 00:35:55,720
- Thank you.
- [PHONE VIBRATING]
788
00:35:55,730 --> 00:35:57,060
Mm-hmm.
789
00:35:58,240 --> 00:36:00,370
- Did you get the annulment?
- Yep.
790
00:36:00,410 --> 00:36:02,570
Yeah, I did. I... I,
you know, signed all
791
00:36:02,580 --> 00:36:04,410
the paperwork, and...
792
00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:05,640
- Good.
- Mm-hmm.
793
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:07,040
What about the will?
794
00:36:07,780 --> 00:36:09,080
I changed the will
795
00:36:09,100 --> 00:36:11,520
and had it notarized, so...
796
00:36:12,380 --> 00:36:15,060
- [PHONE VIBRATING]
- God damn, who is texting you so much?
797
00:36:15,100 --> 00:36:16,650
Oh.
798
00:36:16,690 --> 00:36:18,070
Well, I mean, I'm not in
the office so, you know,
799
00:36:18,090 --> 00:36:20,390
they're just trying to track me down.
800
00:36:20,430 --> 00:36:23,460
Yep. Speaking of which...
801
00:36:24,600 --> 00:36:25,830
I should go.
802
00:36:25,870 --> 00:36:27,370
Thanks for coming by, sweetie.
803
00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:29,040
- Of course.
- Mm.
804
00:36:29,080 --> 00:36:30,340
It's nice.
805
00:36:30,370 --> 00:36:31,970
Oh.
806
00:36:32,010 --> 00:36:34,050
I love you so much.
807
00:36:34,060 --> 00:36:36,060
I love you, too. So much.
808
00:36:36,540 --> 00:36:38,810
Okay, but you're squishing me now.
809
00:36:38,820 --> 00:36:40,210
- Oh.
- [BOTH LAUGH]
810
00:36:40,250 --> 00:36:42,250
God, that was quite the squeeze.
811
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:44,420
- Well, I love you.
- [BOTH LAUGH]
812
00:36:44,450 --> 00:36:45,750
Yeah. I'll see you later.
813
00:36:45,790 --> 00:36:48,050
Remember, we're FaceTiming
with Terra at 3:00.
814
00:36:48,090 --> 00:36:49,690
- Oh, yes.
- So I'll see you then, right?
815
00:36:49,720 --> 00:36:50,770
Okay.
816
00:36:50,780 --> 00:36:52,820
Thank you for this... for the chai.
817
00:36:52,900 --> 00:36:54,790
- Bye.
- Bye.
818
00:36:56,040 --> 00:36:58,100
[SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC]
819
00:36:58,130 --> 00:37:01,100
[PHONE VIBRATING]
820
00:37:01,130 --> 00:37:07,640
♪ ♪
821
00:37:16,420 --> 00:37:19,120
- Ma'am.
- Thank you.
822
00:37:24,090 --> 00:37:31,100
♪ ♪
823
00:37:39,160 --> 00:37:46,040
♪ ♪
824
00:38:00,090 --> 00:38:02,290
When was the last time
you spoke to Bobby
825
00:38:02,330 --> 00:38:03,960
prior to the incident?
826
00:38:04,000 --> 00:38:06,160
That morning, actually, at our house.
827
00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:07,756
He and Toby were staying at our house.
828
00:38:07,780 --> 00:38:09,960
When was the last time
that you spoke to Bobby
829
00:38:09,970 --> 00:38:13,650
about the state of his
and Cindi's marriage?
830
00:38:13,690 --> 00:38:16,960
Um, that was Wednesday the fourth.
831
00:38:16,990 --> 00:38:18,890
Three days before.
832
00:38:18,930 --> 00:38:20,730
What's he like in that conversation?
833
00:38:20,760 --> 00:38:23,160
What's his demeanor?
834
00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:25,430
Oh, he was so upset
835
00:38:25,470 --> 00:38:29,070
and... and crying so hard.
836
00:38:29,110 --> 00:38:31,640
He just felt that things
were over between them
837
00:38:31,670 --> 00:38:33,610
and he was so lost.
838
00:38:33,640 --> 00:38:35,440
How long had you been aware,
839
00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:37,910
uh, that the marriage was in trouble?
840
00:38:37,950 --> 00:38:41,200
By the time Cindi spoke to us
841
00:38:41,220 --> 00:38:43,650
it seemed as if things
were already very bad.
842
00:38:43,690 --> 00:38:46,420
But when Bobby spoke to me...
843
00:38:46,460 --> 00:38:48,390
um, he seemed completely
844
00:38:48,420 --> 00:38:50,490
taken by surprise.
845
00:38:50,530 --> 00:38:51,990
Completely surprised,
846
00:38:52,030 --> 00:38:55,160
and he wanted to save it.
847
00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:57,030
Because he loved her.
848
00:38:57,070 --> 00:38:58,970
Oh, so much.
849
00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:01,200
He loved her so much.
850
00:39:01,240 --> 00:39:03,370
Did he tell you any of the things
851
00:39:03,410 --> 00:39:05,670
that he had done to try
852
00:39:05,700 --> 00:39:08,780
and save the marriage?
853
00:39:08,810 --> 00:39:11,480
He, um, had changed
some of his behavior.
854
00:39:11,510 --> 00:39:14,050
Um, he went to see
855
00:39:14,060 --> 00:39:15,720
our pastor with her.
856
00:39:15,750 --> 00:39:19,220
They went to counseling...
months of counseling.
857
00:39:19,560 --> 00:39:21,790
Um, he agreed to a separation,
858
00:39:21,820 --> 00:39:24,060
agreed to sell their house.
859
00:39:24,090 --> 00:39:27,130
You know, to live
separately for perspective
860
00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:29,200
and for...
861
00:39:29,230 --> 00:39:31,670
absence to make her heart
862
00:39:31,700 --> 00:39:33,370
grow fonder.
863
00:39:33,400 --> 00:39:35,400
And, um...
864
00:39:35,440 --> 00:39:37,280
and he spoke to me.
865
00:39:38,610 --> 00:39:41,010
You can imagine, a man having to come
866
00:39:41,040 --> 00:39:43,210
to his mother-in-law for help...
867
00:39:43,250 --> 00:39:45,880
and to cry in front of her.
868
00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:49,220
And did any of the things
that he tried work?
869
00:39:52,090 --> 00:39:53,490
No.
870
00:39:53,520 --> 00:39:56,840
Um, he was doing it
thinking that he could...
871
00:39:56,850 --> 00:40:00,190
if he did, he could keep
Cindi with him, but...
872
00:40:00,230 --> 00:40:03,800
you know, I... I don't think
he ever had a chance,
873
00:40:03,820 --> 00:40:06,830
and when he came to realize that...
874
00:40:07,870 --> 00:40:09,280
Prior to the incident,
875
00:40:09,300 --> 00:40:12,570
how did you feel about Bobby?
876
00:40:12,610 --> 00:40:14,610
Oh, I... I loved him.
877
00:40:14,640 --> 00:40:16,020
Loved him very much.
878
00:40:16,050 --> 00:40:19,010
He had such a pure heart. [CHUCKLES]
879
00:40:19,050 --> 00:40:22,050
I mean, his... his whole
life was Cindi and Toby.
880
00:40:22,090 --> 00:40:25,120
Um, working for their
family, their life together
881
00:40:25,150 --> 00:40:27,320
as a... as a family.
882
00:40:28,290 --> 00:40:30,660
How do you feel about him now?
883
00:40:31,830 --> 00:40:34,060
I still love him.
884
00:40:34,100 --> 00:40:35,280
You love him.
885
00:40:36,930 --> 00:40:39,200
- I do.
- Even after everything
886
00:40:39,240 --> 00:40:40,600
that happened?
887
00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:43,540
[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]
888
00:40:43,570 --> 00:40:45,610
Bobby asked me the same question.
889
00:40:45,640 --> 00:40:47,940
Because it's very
difficult to understand,
890
00:40:47,980 --> 00:40:49,980
if not impossible.
891
00:40:52,150 --> 00:40:54,450
Bobby did a... a terrible thing.
892
00:40:54,480 --> 00:40:57,720
♪ ♪
893
00:40:57,750 --> 00:40:59,340
The worst thing.
894
00:41:01,020 --> 00:41:03,360
I hate what he did.
895
00:41:03,390 --> 00:41:06,240
And I told him that, I... I did.
896
00:41:07,430 --> 00:41:09,980
But if he had been in his right mind
897
00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:11,360
he could never have done that.
898
00:41:13,800 --> 00:41:16,700
So what he did doesn't...
899
00:41:16,870 --> 00:41:19,320
doesn't change what I believe about him.
900
00:41:19,460 --> 00:41:23,440
♪ ♪
901
00:41:23,480 --> 00:41:24,760
I can still love Bobby,
902
00:41:24,780 --> 00:41:27,360
and I forgive him...
903
00:41:27,650 --> 00:41:30,040
because I want to forgive him.
904
00:41:30,690 --> 00:41:33,360
Because of what I know.
905
00:41:34,820 --> 00:41:37,260
I know...
906
00:41:37,290 --> 00:41:39,960
his heart was full of love.
907
00:41:40,000 --> 00:41:42,800
♪ ♪
908
00:41:42,830 --> 00:41:44,470
He just...
909
00:41:44,500 --> 00:41:47,400
he just lost his way.
910
00:41:47,440 --> 00:41:50,470
[TENSE MUSIC]
911
00:41:50,510 --> 00:41:57,400
♪ ♪
912
00:41:59,420 --> 00:42:06,240
♪ ♪
913
00:42:20,470 --> 00:42:27,420
♪ ♪
914
00:42:35,190 --> 00:42:40,190
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